A RATHER INCONVENIENT MOOD

So sorry you are feeling low, now please – what can i do?

There must be something I can say to try and pull you through

If I can help in any way, I’d really like to know

I’m glad you opened up at last and let your feelings show

You tell me how you wish to die, and though you make no plea

I must find a solution as this surely cannot be

How long until you’re better Bev? Please say you’re past the worst

You cannot die today my dear please write some money first

 

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I am sorry I want to die but my whole world is black

No longer can i see the light, can’t see ahead or back

When you adorn your spectacles to look to days ahead

And glimpse through rosy lenses at your rose infested bed

Don’t tell me I should see the same, a future clear and bright

For many years ago I fear, I lost my sense of sight

 

Although I hear them hopefully, such words I know are lost

For every happy day I have is bought at such high cost

The highs and lows will come and go.

Then come along again

And nothing here will ever change no matter how or when

 

If not tomorrow or next week perhaps maybe today

I will book in with Reaper Grim who’ll take the pain away

So everything ends here and now.

End of.

No more to say.

I’m sorry if I trouble you, don’t want to marr your day

If that’s an inconvenience, I’ll soon be out the way.

FISH

“There’s plenty of fish in the sea” so they say
Yet out of so many ‘The One’ found his way.
Surrounded by minnows, amoeba and sharks.
He saw I was drowning and rescued my heart.

My life started last night when I saw his face.
The stars all collided, then fell into place.
Connection and chemistry, feverish fire.
Was raging within us, such burning desire.

And as the years pass us the fire still it glows.
Now fused in with friendship our bond of love grows
How utterly lucky and grateful are we
That I messaged you and that you messaged me.

We share all we have and we share all we are
We feel one another from near or afar
Holding each other we fall fast asleep
Us two happy fishes, from lone oceans deep.

Then ‘Bang!’ I awake from my sweet, balmy dream.
Embracing a void in the space you had been.
For you are not here, I’m still searching for you.
Until you lie with me I always will do.

If you are ‘The One’ please swim over to me.
We’ll pack up our inbox, our keyboard, our screen.
And plunge into real life, we’ll exit this sea.
And drown in contentment for eternity.

GLUE

My heart was yours, you broke it

My neck exposed, you choked it

My face you held, then spat and yelled

And all my dreams you took and shelved

And cared not.

 

I gave you love, you lost it

And you shall never have it

I watch as you decay and rust

Your withered soul reduced to dust

And care not.

 

Goodbye relentless heartache

A ‘love’ so bitter and fake

No more regret, I will forget,

Find someone true; a better you

A man to find my broken heart

Still ripped, still shattered, torn apart

And with his tender touch

He’ll give what you could never give me

Real love.